Excruciating

I am losing track of where i wanna go, what i wanna do, what is my dream. All of a sudden, i saw nothing in front of me. I saw darkness. I dont know what to do. Really duno. This world is cruel, too cruel to be true. It's excruciating. I wanna cry.

Long lost relative

HAHA! today with to meet up with Chang Cheng, my Mum's biao di. Don't know how to address him.. Biao-biao ge? Lol so funny. 5 years never see him le, ever since my tai ma passed on.. He still look the same.. haha. I find him kinda good-looking. hmmm, a filial boy, caring and sincere. Went to eat Ajisen with Mummy, Aunt, Chang Cheng , and my cute 2 cousins. He's working as a hairdresser now at Yew Tee. Looks like i am going to have a Free haircutting session soon!

Class outing

Haha, went to sentosa with 08s28 on last monday. So long never go Sentosa le. Miss the tanning. i wanna become more tannned!! Mayb see liao more slim. hahaa actually quite paiseh to wear bikini in front of my class guys, but for the sake of my even tanning- suan le bah! haha jus wear. After that we went to cathay for dinner =)

haha cant post too much of the bikini pictures.. like very inapprioriate.

A picture speaks a thousand words=)

Godpa' birthday =)

Last sunday i went to Furama hotel for buffet to celebrate my godpa's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

haha, the food not really nice but its okay.. because NOT I PAY!!! hahaha my cousin paid. I don't know what to get for my godpA so i went to icing room to decorate one for him. How nice if i know how to bake a cake. I can bake it for my friends, family.. how nice.. waiting for my Oliver to teach me =)

haha cute eh?=) look like him.

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My friends are complaining that my blog is super boring and that i did not update it. Alright.
SPECIALLY TO NOUVELLE, EILEEN. ANQI. I am updating my blog already alright. Glad to know that u all have been viewing my blog, so care for me..HAHAHA. SO TOUCHED *.* muacks muacks muacks MUACKS! haha bu hao yi si oh. I will try my best to update it often so as not to disappoint you all. Thank you Thank you.


BLOOD.. Don't say i dont love you.. pls sleep early and do remember to eat okay.. Dont skip meals. and sleep early okay.. if not you got panda eyes not pretty le.. wah, what the... HAIR STAND~~~~~~



E n O u G h o F T h I S ....


Back to my life..


Life's boring for me this year, definitely. And thats very sad. Another five months to go SOPHIA! jia you bah. I have come thus far, therefore i should not give up. I know my results so bloody lousy=( Two days ago, my mom was comparing my brother's result and mine. My lucky brother has secured himself a place in NTU. Hais, unlike me, i should have gone to poly. Then of cos to defend myself i said 'POLY MUCH EASIER LOH!' den she replied, ' YOUR HEAD AH, ONLY TOP 15% CAN GO OKAY! " . i was down there murmuring that 'yaya.. ur clever son my clever brother' But nevertheless i still love my MOM. then she go on saying.............. " If you fail A level hor, i think you go learn some accounting or some skills lor , den mayb can work as clerk'.... =.='''' I WAS LIKE SO TOTALLY SIAN LAH. wah, i never know it feels so hurtful when my own Mom have no confidence in me.. I tell myself i die die also must get into university. But i am so afraid that i couldn't go it. NO NO, i must do it. hais. Study is one thing i am worried for myself. Who ask me not to born to be like Albert Einstein or those born clever people. In fact, i do have quite alot of confusions and fustrations running in my mind but that i don't really mention it. I don't like the feeling of being asked because its not as if i owe those people an explanation or account to them about my life. Unless they are my close friends. I would rather cry to bed and next day i will be ok. Sometimes, how i wish life goes on like the way i want it to be. I don't hope for fame and wealth. I just want a simple and happy life. Tell me the ending that i want to hear. ahhhh.. Sometimes for no reason i'll feel very sad and dampen. Mayb EMO?. stupid emotions.. haha. ALRIGHT. i want to watch tv already.

oh ya remember to watch beach ball babes on saturday okay! ITS LAST EPISODE LAST EPISODE LAST EPISODE!!!!!!!!! got me =)))) although i ka-ler-fair but still better than nothing. Hahaha..

ARGHHH

I AM SO SUPER IRRITATEED BY MY ONE PIMPLE ON MY FACE. IT'S THERE FOR ONE WEEK ALREADY! ARGH

haha JJ TALENTINE

yesterday went to JJ talentime =) It wan quite fun bah. Went with Kaiyan and Xintong and Kaiyan's friends. Lol. After that Qian me and Jasmine and Shaoyan went coffee bean lim kopi with basketball boys. Haha feel quite weird cos i dunno them well. But still, quite funny la. After that, went to boat quay to celebrate Anqi's birthday.

--HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANQI AND AH YI!!!--

TEAM JJ VOLLEYBALL!

My last Nationals A Division Tournament

Yesterday was my last match against ACJC, fighting for 3rd and 4th position. Played against them countless times of friendly before already. There were alot or teachers and supporters down there, and even the Principal also. Of course we don't wanna lose right? Who wanna lose? Afew days ago, i thought we could jus put in out best effort and play the match well and end it beautiful, but we din managed to do so. Ester called me and told she she got a fever, and she din turn up for the last match, our last match. Of cos i dun blame her, who will wanna fall sick.
But i was quite disappointed thst she din turn up. at least turn up...
When the whistle goes, i know something was wrong, very very wrong.. The feeling wasn't right. The match started. Supporters were cheering. I want to say, thank you to all of you, really. But i am sorry that i did not managed to put in the best performance and let u all watch a lousy match. It should be an exciting match, It should be. Sorry everyone who came down to watch.
And sorry my teammates who put in alot of effort ,especally Jasmine. I want to play well, but i cant, i dunno why.
After the match i din feel a thing, i don't know why. I should be sad, i should cry. But i din. i know i sucks. I am the captain and i shouldnt say such things. but my body jus dun wan to function. But in my heart, i still wish to end it besutifully. thanks to Bestia who helped me console Jasmine. and Waitsz, i know u are stressed, and i don't bame you. =) its jus that from the starting, i know things are not right.
I am glad that after that, everyone got back and we had a nice dinner together. We ordered mac delivery and we played games after that(with boys team). So many funny things happened. I guess all of us will she bu de each other bah.

TEAM JJ VOLLEYBALL HAS MADE THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ENDING. I WILL MISS ALL OFF YOU DEEPLY IN MY HEART, AND ALSO MY COACH , ONG TECK BOON..

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